Killing smoke

Cigarettes are one of the darkest enemies of our world. The biggest enemy of the world is called a human. I think nothing can hurt you as much as other people. We get hurt, we feel bad, we are trying to escape and then we try these bad things. This isn´t that type of an article where I describe the aftermaths of smoking. I am reallly sure that you all know those. I will try to answer the question "Why ?" Because I know that there are a lot of people who say: " I don´t understand the people who do this. They know it is killing them and it is unhealthy and they do it despite knowing these facts. Why ?" and so on. Poeple don´t realise that they did it for a reason. Because it goes a lot deeper than just cancer.

You take out your white box with different colors on the top, look at it and think: "Finally." It is motly a quick process. You grab the white-orange stick, put it right between your teeth and give it the light so it can do it´s job - kill you slowly, without pain and you are aware what it is doing. Even the first breath makes you feel better. You enter a completely different world full of the things you always wanted or it just makes you forget about the darkness of this world. You may think that I smoke but I don´t. I´ve never even held a cigarette. You know my grandpa died from lung cancer because of smoking so...no, thanks. I didn´t have to try it to know that it is a bad thing. However I am not saint here either. I did dark things even though I knew it was really bad. The thing is that people don´t think clearly during these times. Their minds are cloudy. The difference between smoking and self harm is actually nothing. I thought that there is something about it a few hours ago but there isn´t really a difference. Except that you use a razer or a cigarette. But the effect is the same as with drugs, alcohol, self harm or smoking. You get satisfaction. These bad things aren´t about health at all. It is always emotional and ususally people do it to calm down and release the stress they have.

I learned that the satisfaction, the good feelings aren´t permanent. You need more and more and it slowly becomes an addiction. And I know that it isn´t easy to quit something you are used to do every day. But I know as well that every bad habit can be quit. But you can´t do it if you don´t have the courage to try. If it is important you will do your best to break a bad habbit. You need one more thing. A reason. I had a great reason to stop. It wasn´t for me. I wouldn´t stop if it was for me. My reason was much more important than that. All the people I love and I care about. That was the reason. I realised that what I was doing wasn´t hurting me as much as it was hurting them. I would burst into tears when I saw how much pain I caused for them with doing this. I also had a billion reasons to keep doing it but that one fact that I was hurting them was much more stronger than those billion reasons. Good always fights the bad as always. There are tuff situations, hard challenges to take but these are just tests of life to see if you can keep up. You may fail but that is okay. A lot of people fall down and it is totally acceptable. What isn´t acceptable is laying there on the ground and not trying to stand up. Sometimes you need to be given a hand because you aren´t strong enough to stand up. It is not a shame that somebody helps you. Vice versa it is good because you see that somebody supports you.

" The reasons not to do the bad things are much bigger than the reasons to do the bad things" The first time I said this Redhead almost started crying. I hope that you find a really good one because the fact that you are technically killing yourself is killing me. I don´t want you to end up like my grandpa or any other smoker in the world. You are too important to end up like that.

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