The ugly truth

We always tend to expect great things from life and I do as well, but here is the thing. You know....I always tell you guys to love yourself and that we are all beautiful. Now I am gonna show it to you from a different angle. All these girl who are not fat and not skinny - let´s say overweight - they say or try to think positive and tell themselves that they aren´t fat and that it is okay. However I claim that in the bottom of their heats all these girls think they are fat and not good enoug. And girls think about things like this because of the guys. Yes, they say that it is for themselves but in the end it is both or just one of the two. We say that it is okay but the truth is that a whole awful lot of girls claim they are fat and you can tell them they are beautiful, that they look pretty, that they aren´t fat...they just won´t listen. They don´t believe it. The feelings in times like this are terrible. Hating the mirrors, searching thigh gaps, skinny photos, calculating the numbers, focusing on eating less and less, it is all about the numbers. Mostly the one on the scale. Pretty scary ha? And the sad part is that you can´t change it. You simply can´t. You can make thousands of anti-ana campaignes, web pages, therapies but it will still continue to exist and more and more girls and guys will suffer from eating disorders. As long as internet is going to exist this is gonna happen because the internet helps the teens to do it "right" and see more and more photos of girls and guys with dangerous weights. It is awful how much suffering and bad things can be in this world.

Skinny is something any girl wants to be because you don´t get called names, you can sit or be in any pose you would want to because you needn´t worry about how big your stomach looks, you can buy any clothes you want. I don´t even know why I am telling you this. It just makes you want to try it and keep you going. I would love to tell you that it is not worth it but you wouldn´t listen. So I am gonna tell you what it makes with you. You become more sad and depressed from the feeling that you could be even skinnier, you lose your true self and become more upset a lot of times, you slowly get weaker, your hair starts to fall out, you feel weird and uncomfortable when you have to eat so people wouldn´t notice and think eventually which meal you can skip next so it would be balanced, you feel pain in your stomach when you eat after a long time, your brain learns how to ignor the hunger after just one or two weeks so you become "stronger" every day. You try to recover but you can´t. If you do then you gain the weight back very fast and you will become unhappy again after a certain amount of time. The funny part is that all these girls say that they don´t want to go to extreme weights, that they want to lose just a few pounds, that they won´t let it out of controll. But they always do and it always ends up bad. I am trying to make this a little different from the other articles that support anti-eating disorder campaings and so. But how can I speak to you when I know that all those girls actually suffering from EDs stopped reading when I told them it was wrong. I will not tell you to stop because you would keep going harder, I will not tell you to eat because you won´t. I am just gonna tell you to think about all the happiness despite seing all the photos, despite hearing all the bad names you can get called, despite any ideas of beauty in the world. I am gonna tell you to think about giving it a try to recover and be yourself again. I am telling you to do your best. You can always do that. I hope these weren´t just empty words from my side. EDs destroy everything you are and it is not worth it. If you think that what you look like and the number on the scale is more important than the people around you who worry then you are out of your mind. See.....you think that nobody cares or notices but you actually hurt the people around you more than you think. Look at life in a different way. Please do think about this whole thing called "perfection". Perfection doesn´t exist. You cannot be perfect for everybody. Perfection involves also features and your personality and that is your weapon. And even if you expect me to focus just on the looks.....I still think it is not worth all that pain, all those bad feelings, all those days wishing you looked elsehow, all the skipped meals, all that time when you could have been happy. I know you claim that being skinny makes you happy but it really does not. Confidence is what makes you happy and not that number on the scale or seeing your bones. You don´t have to change and destroy your body. You have to change the way you look at yourself. With all those flaws and extra kilos you still look beautiful. (:

In memory of all the people who died from eating desorders. For the brighter future of the ones who still suffer from one of them.

#anorexia #beauty #dontcarewhattheysay